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Post by PaRkA on Jun 23, 2003 18:50:24 GMT 7
im goin to from tonite post a song a day (when i can) to see how long it goes for, as much as i can ill post them in alphebetical order starting with....
now they wont be all songs, some could be poems, rants, anything that ive written.
ABOUT YOU
Sun drenched Petals Intense colours in bloom Magical aroma My heart is doomed Unsurpassed presence Why can’t this be true? Beautiful eyes It’s too bad I’m not meant for you Not perfect That’s me Never you
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Post by PaRkA on Jun 24, 2003 17:29:10 GMT 7
cancer
i wait for when you least expect it now i can reek havoc slowly i start to spread infecting one spot then onto the next i have no compassion i wonder why so many people hate me im easy to detect yet im done by the time you find me i am the after affect its done so harshly i have no respect i eat away at you taking every thing you hold true i devour that and everything around you few obstacles can stop me you are lucky to survive i mark you like a blood stain i never go away
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Post by PaRkA on Jun 25, 2003 15:16:46 GMT 7
CHANGE
My body is weak I cant sleep fallen back to my old routine I can be free from everything But I cant be myself When I find what I want I cant help myself I realise I have always been me Its just I don’t like what I see I can see everyone I can see me I can be anyone I can be me Please sedate me or I’ll tear this thing in two Please restrain me all I want is you Don’t lie to me I only want the truth I sit atop a shelf for all to see I’m waiting for someone to come rescue me I am free I am me I am everyone Just you wait and see
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Post by PaRkA on Jun 26, 2003 17:40:28 GMT 7
elements I feel the wind calling ready to direct me i feel the push toward something better guided i am brought to rest a sense of belonging that has been longing for so long i have waited for so long for so long now i can see the sun waving to me i feel its burn caress my skin i warm to its touch and resolve a sense of belonging that is longing i have found i have found it all now i have found it i feel the water fill me, refresh and cleanse me inside out, it trickles and falls downward what other way can it go a sense of belonging that has been longing for so long i have waited for so long now for so long the earth turns between my toes grating coarse and worn yet warm reassuring textured in blood i blend to it a sense of belonging that is longing i have found i have found it now i have found i have waited to see this and now i can be this at best i can try now try to understand i will fail cause you will not show me a sense of belonging that has been longing for so long i have waited for so long now for so long i dont want to let it slip dont let me lose it it will go and change from me and i do not want to be here again
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Post by PaRkA on Jun 27, 2003 15:25:52 GMT 7
fate
im not goin to lose im never goin to leave this rage in me a temper seed
and i know that you mean something to me i want to see how we could be
nothing is real all so far away one step closer and ill walk away
and i know that you meant something to me im not too sure what im supposed to be
during these quiet times when nothing happens the days fly into this night sky
when you meant something to me i could see the way we used to be im inspired by the way you feel so much i had to leave you
nothing is ever real nothing is as it seems just when you think you can conquer something comes along to stop you
and I know you meant something to me I want to see how far we could come to be
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Post by PaRkA on Jun 28, 2003 17:57:56 GMT 7
finally.....
i cant take it withstanding so much pressure feeling the walls enclose trying to break this last strap so i can escape constantly my head shakes welling with my tears puddles of hate trying to break free this last strap holds me i cant escape sick of being pushed im tired and im not backing away cant i, just for one day have it my way
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Post by PaRkA on Jun 29, 2003 18:40:54 GMT 7
HEART
I cant wait to be free I cant wait to see The sunrise without Any clouds in the way I want to try I want to be Everything You cant see Did you feel it What you meant to me When I told you Stay with me This is what You want to free Your body, your mind And all of me That is mine This wont be taken Every time you…<br>I am forsaken Don’t steal my heart Look after it good (you’d) destroy my world if you understood
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Post by PaRkA on Jun 30, 2003 14:29:25 GMT 7
its ranty rant time
Im used to it
Its alright im used to it Someones better than me Hey everyone is It doesn’t matter what I do NOTHING wont cut it I try but still I fail Im missing a link an important one too Somethings wrong I thought you liked me I was mistaken Hurt again Its alright im used to it Why do I fall if I know its gonna hurt But still I fall What do I have for you I don’t think you want NOTHING NOTHING at all Try some of this NOTHING Why waste my time just tell me Im not what you want I know that And still I fall Deeper Deeper Down Down Stop me now Falling Falling down Just to feel what you meant to me Hitting the ground And you remind me NOTHING I have NOTHING for you I am NOTHING to you I now know this And still I will fall I know I should leave you alone But I cant help it It sticks but I don’t want to stay I know what will happen I will fall again I don’t want to I need you to catch me I need you to want me Aaaarrrrrgggggghhhhhhhhh NOTHING Everything I am is NOTHING to you Yet I fall I cant seem to stop Falling Fallen NOTHING
PART 2
LITTLE SKIT
The pain I hate But I come back for more I should hold myself back I don’t need it anymore The pain I feel draws me cos its you no words can describe the way but the pain seems to know how I feel I cant stop im always going to be like this I almost enjoy it Yet it makes me feel drained so I feel like a character whose skit has been ended I have NOTHNG So im discarded This pain cant win I didn’t want to play So how can it beat me
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Post by PaRkA on Jul 14, 2003 7:55:57 GMT 7
the last taste of freedom
The taste of lead beckons Its only cold comfort Hitting the wall Leaves you bittersweet
Your last chance at freedom When you think you have to end it all Ill come to save you
Devils smile scars you Every once in awhile Ill waste you Just to save you the trouble
The last taste of freedom When you think you had to end it all Ill be there to save you
Setting down Somewhere Anywhere near heaven The light blinds you So I sit beside you to guide you
The last day of freedom When you had to end it all Couldn’t you see I was there for you
You cant take no more Your body stiff and sore Just lay down They wont hurt you anymore
There was no freedom you had to end it Nothing mattered not now not ever
And you had to stop the pain When you closed your eyes I could see the vain hope had gone I was just here to help
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Post by PaRkA on Jul 15, 2003 18:28:25 GMT 7
orange crush
how do i feel when i see you this way same as i feel when i seem too strange i thought i had seen it all then the bough broke
dont go away please dont run just stay listen to reason i dont know what to say just stay
an echo forms and bounces of the walls my restraint cant hold out anymore what would you change given you had the chance would i be there anywhere
and i dont want you to go just stay and listen i dont know what to say but you just have to stay
so when i tell you how to breathe you breathe, so if i told you how i felt would you feel the same and when i see it all come together will you see the same
and now you stay and begin to listen i still dont know what to say but i hope you still stay
i would say that i need you and i do but the way i want to might be confused but us together that could all change my feelings would grow as i discard my pain
now you stay and i see you glisten nothing to say but my heart wants you to stay
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Post by PaRkA on Jul 16, 2003 19:22:42 GMT 7
peace in her sleep
I FEEL YOU WILT THROUGH AND THROUGH I WEEP WITH YOU I WATCH YOU SLEEP SHE TELLS ME SHE CAN’T GO ON AND ALL I DO IS WATCH HELPLESS TO EASE THE PAIN NOTHING TO MAKE IT GO AWAY A PIECE IN HER MIND WANTS ONLY TO BE AT PEACE WITH HER BODY I CAN ONLY TRY TO SEE HER SUFFERING AT EASE SLEEP NOW SHE TELLS ME SHE CAN’T GO ON AND ALL I DO IS WATCH HELPLESS TO EASE THE PAIN NOTHING WILL WISH IT AWAY
WHY DO WE SUFFER LIKE THIS WHY DO WE HURT SO CAN I NOT BE THERE FOR THE TIME SHE HURTS THE MOST SO TO MAKE IT GO AWAY SHE FALLS DOWN THIS LAST TIME CRYING WONT HELP NOW WHY MOVE ON…<br> IF I ONLY KNEW HOW TO BRING YOU BACK IF I ONLY KNEW HOW TO BRING YOU BACK TO ME COME BACK COME BACK TO ME BABY NEVER LEAVE ME
IS SHE SPOSED TO LEAVE YOU’RE WITH PEACE NOW COULD YOU BRING IT BACK SHOW IT WHAT YOU HAVE SHOW PAIN FOR WHAT PAIN IS YOU HAVE GONE NOW AND TAKEN PIECES OF ME TOO MY THOUGHTS BUILD YOU AGAIN KEEPING YOU SAFE FROM WHAT HURTS KEEPING YOU SAFE FROM HARM HOLDING YOU TO PEACE IN YOUR MIND I HAVE PIECES OF YOUR HEART THEY ARE WITH ME ALWAYS
part 2
I will destroy the beat that I am I have completed the journey to you I now see thru you like your not even there You showed me someone Someone I thought did not exist Someone who is for me Someone to replace what has been taken so many times before Feeling like this might work I pray for it to work Im stunned I haven’t smiled this much in ages I am locked For I cannot see I know of it But I cannot yet see it I want to mould but impatience Will make us incurable So I step back and let the feelings guide me I feel so dormant Sleep would be faster I tremble as a sign of movement Deviding because we are apart Our feelings will join and mend Forever you will be with me
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Post by PaRkA on Jul 17, 2003 18:00:31 GMT 7
SHORT AND SWEET
Im feeling down Im destined to fight Fight my way Thru this life On top of me All over you You crash your car I’ll wreck mine too To be with you Is all I want For you to see me Is all I want Im tickled blue Im ready to share I’ll see you there We’ll feel alright Tonight is now Do you feel the light My life is sad You can laugh if you like
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Post by PaRkA on Jul 22, 2003 21:03:22 GMT 7
a little changed from the original..
heart falling apart
His weight fastened he stands withdrawn The look of anguish over rules His face, worn His feet starting to sink Despised he sees no reason to hide
So come forth show us your steele Show us the blindness thru which u can see
Make our mistakes reside, bask with us don’t cast it aside Ur metal is rusting, ur armour has kinks The link in the chain broken, You reach for a grasp of freedom
So come forth show us your steele Show us the blindness thru which u can see
Only when you decide that you want to live Will help be free not taken for granted He stands tall, pride gunning for space with love Its amazing how feeling this can change someone so much
So come forth show us your steele Show us the blindness thru which u can see
Its no wonder we seek this not waiting its something we hold so dear but find so hard to keep but it can be ruined so easily we mould to it, to lift us, we want it to fit
So come forth show us your steele Show us the blindness thru which u can see
we destroy it to make it feel the pain it causes makes us feel so unreal and we still subscribe as if to belong to a club the hearts falling apart club
So come forth show us your steele Show us the blindness thru which u can see
and everyone becomes a member ur toll is your heart its taken and torn and your soul dismembered never to see the light never to be reborne
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Post by PaRkA on Jul 28, 2003 18:13:14 GMT 7
This pain
When it cuts so bad How deep it goes This pain I feel Always shows
I thought after so long I knew so much this pain for you I feel as such
I never knew this pain would hurt so bad this pain for you this pain so sad
To be this close to you But your so far away This pain I feel Lingers on all day
This pain I feel cuts so deep The hurt I feel Not so sweet
And everyday Its like this im going to miss you so much
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Post by PaRkA on Aug 3, 2003 17:20:15 GMT 7
i would like to tell you without scaring you off that would be too easy your heart escaped me before and i dont know how then i turned around and it knocked me down your flawless and im without a doubt that you are the one i hope we will be one i cant wait for each new day to learn something new about me and about you to see you with me so happy with glee to watch you strut when you talk about me only to see my smile when i think about you its all i seem to do lets spend time with each other nothing else seems right time seems to fly and fun cant explain it everytime i see you i feel the power i cant control it and it lifts me up i cant deny this feeling and i dont want it to stop i see you feel it too off in a dreamy state and i cant believe i make someone feel this way thats what makes it feel so good i can make her feel the same way about me that i feel about her too and its true we were meant to be forever, everlasting like its set in stone this love will not break like the beating of my heart it will not stop like the suns rays it will not depleate like you and me it was meant to be...
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