i have writers block

[PaRkA]

slideshow, directing where it is im sposed to be
the rest of me trying to abide by the diserning notion that im all alone, everytime i want to close you out im found tied and bound, encased and claustrophobic, head strung, and nacarcistic im turning out to fear what i always wanted to be...
having someone to share a strength to even out a weakness, has shown my armour failing, im wondering if the shield that is protecting me is the object that will be my undoing
there was space and time and it was all my own, every morning i woke up i knew i was alone, now everytime i sleep i fear i will not be known...
i never thought i would feel selfish about my future and whatever direction it was going to trail, now i stop just to make sure im not stepping my own footprints over, the pain i had felt i never want to be again, but i fear the ground i tread will tear me apart just the same
i never thought the pain, anguish, the fear i felt so long, the words that lept from word to word would dry up so instantaniously, and leave me feeling worse than i did when i felt the pain thru this page, now i try so hard to be what was always my cliche...
the first words i wrote out of memory and context are these few, yet confused and abstract show some balance and change in my life i never knew of......
i never thought i would write again like i used to, and i probably wont, the headaches that kept me up, because for once my conscience was clear, the pain redirected, i find now, i miss more than anything from my past, if i could just write with the power and direction that was my own for so long, i would give my whole being to just be able to tell you how i feel without hiding in the reels and reels of letters and sentences that i do now, fearing it wont live upto the expectations of past...
which till now was nothing


if you understand any of that, i applaud you

if you dont im sorry, i have no idea from where it came or its purpose but its there.....

[Magdelena]

Ive read it three times PARKS!!! It still boggles my mind...must say im impressed..its very very intelligent....nice to see someone still likes large words......( see you out soon around this weee town o' ours!!)

[Mediel]

Cerebro said:

i never thought i would write again like i used to, and i probably wont, the headaches that kept me up, because for once my conscience was clear, the pain redirected, i find now, i miss more than anything from my past, if i could just write with the power and direction that was my own for so long, i would give my whole being to just be able to tell you how i feel without hiding in the reels and reels of letters and sentences that i do now,

dear god, that reminds me of something i wrote once...
as for the rest of it - beautiful just because of the way the words fit next to each other.
well, not "just"... but you know what I mean.

[PaRkA]

thank you

[Brundisium]

It's definately very, very good.



I get the same thing when I have writer's block.

You can't write about anything except the fact that you have writers block.

Which is sort of a contradiction in terms but yeah....

[maryjane]

There is no such thing as writers block!

[sunky]

maryjane said:

There is no such thing as writers block!

care to expand on that? ... i can understand when a person just simply reaches a point where they are unable to complete something ... but how can there be no such thing as this?

[maryjane]

"Writers block"as most people call it only exists to people who believe in it! A common situation for most artists is they feel they can't live up to the work they have previosly done,hence meaning there self confidence is low in there work, there for they think they have "writers block" how someone lifts there confidence in there work is up to them.

the bottom line is this: writers block dosen't exist! and it especially shouldn't if your an artist.

[sunky]

so you're saying as an 'artist' you never reach a point where you're unable to finish a piece of work? Where you struggle to complete something to a level of happiness for yourself? Therefore does your work evolve? or improve over time? or would it just stay the same level.

Having trouble finishing something because you feel it isn't as good as previous work is not a bad thing i think. It a good way of knowing what you are able achieve and pushing yourself to accomplish something that is better than what you have previously done. As an artist you should always try to push yourself to do what is better than what you have already done, it has nothing to do with lack of confidence.

[blue_june_destroyer]

maryjane said:

"Writers block"as most people call it only exists to people who believe in it!

so... what you're trying to tell us is that writers block is like Santa, the Easter Bunny, God and Organised Religion?

I've been a practising artist for many years now and let me tell you, writer's block DOES exist!

[maryjane]

Just because an Artist is not happy with there work at the end of the day, Dosen't mean they have some kind of writers block,there's no law saying you have to finnish every song or poem, you could just start a new one?

Friends say to me "I can't think of anything new or creative I must have writers block"just because they can't think of anything at the time dosen't mean its not there, but I guess its easy just to say I have writers block!that just makes things worse!

its only a personal state of mind,a docter can't diognose you with it,insperation for some people comes rarley,so you want to be there to ride the wave the last thing you want to be doing is by giving up and saying I have writers block.

and the last thing: millions of children around the world believe in santa clause, but that dosen't mean he exists.

[sunky]

ok - thats your personal opinion.

at the end of the day ... its a figure of speach, that is used when somebody is having trouble completing something. I know its not something a doctor can diagnose you with ... thats just stupid.

[PaRkA]

writers block does exist everytime this last couple of months i try and write something down its blocked from getting to the page by my fucked up brain, there for i have WRITERS BLOCK enough said...