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Post by neverchange on Jan 15, 2011 6:15:05 GMT 7
A lot of my friends know that I love the smashing pumpkins, but when someone actually ask me, how much?
my normal response would be:
When I die, i dont mind losing my family, my girl and even my kids... i know this is just part of life and i cant take them where i am going next.. what i am worried about is that i cant take the smashing pumpkins with me... how do i continue my next life without them? i dont know how i will cope, how do i be me without them?
inseparable
till this day i still fear my death... cus it will be the end of the SP in me... this thought scares me, am I the only one?
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Post by boelsen on Jan 15, 2011 8:46:42 GMT 7
i dont think even a decade ago i would have answered with such passion i guess also it depends on what you think happens when you die, but thats for another topic
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Post by Insanity's Horse on Jan 19, 2011 11:18:38 GMT 7
You should really talk to your family about how you feel.
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Post by sunkissed on Jan 20, 2011 6:42:32 GMT 7
I think that if you already assume you can't take your kids, family and girl wherever you're going next and accept that it's a part of life you can't change then you should probably do the same with your love of the pumpkins.
Fear of death is one thing, but you concern me when you say that you worry who you will be without the pumpkins and whether or not you can bring them into the next life - it sounds like you might need some help my friend. Also, I'm not sure you should tell your family that you care more for yourself and the pumpkins than you do them.
I've loved this band for a long time and like long loves you fall in and out of passion for them, these days I'd say they're more of an ex-girlfriend I don't have a lot of contact with, but every now and then something will bring her to mind and all the power is still there and its not nostalgia either, I still love them.
I don't know about this next life business but I imagine I'd have other things on my mind when I die, like "Fuck, should've looked both ways before I crossed the..." or "did I delete my web browser history?"
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Post by boelsen on Jan 21, 2011 19:30:14 GMT 7
or "did I delete my web browser history?" hahahahahahahaha
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Post by AlmostOz on May 13, 2011 21:48:10 GMT 7
or "did I delete my web browser history?" hahahahahahahaha Lol I felt that way about the pumpkins 10 years ago when I was 16, listened to them pretty much exclusivley aside from shihad and live, for many years, listened to every message that billy left like it was a message from god. But ten years on I have less hormones running through my body, I can think for myself, and Billy is just a man, a very talented one, but he's no god. The pumpkins I listen to far less as variety is the spice of life and I am very much into many types of music including some country which I used to detest. I also feel less passion when I listen to lyrics that used to mean everything to me, but after hearing them a million times really mean nothing anymore, except for taking me back to a moment in time. For example I remember listening to perfect really loud at my friends girlfriends house while they had sex on the couch next door when I was about 14 I remember listening to set the ray to jerry while I was depressed I remember listening to el sol while sitting in my bedroom, I have no idea why I remember that. Thats about it. The new stuff is ok to nice but theres no lyrics that mean anything to me in this stage of my life which is in transition atm, buying a house probably have kids in a few years. (Write a song about that billy!) (reminds me of that scene in the bathtub in fight club) I guess I've grown up and The pumpkins and I have grown apart like good friends in different cities, Billy doesn't write about subject matter that makes me feel anything anymore, whereas some other artists like shihad and ed kowalchyzizzle have been.
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