lost within (a collection of pain)

[PaRkA]

lost


everything is missing
right here and i am lost
today i found
the hole beside my thoughts
and all i could see was pain
standing up to face it

i am
i will
lost
lost within
everything surrounding this mess

I created
My own hands
Everyday I feel
This same pain
Like a knife in my back
The wound is always the same

I have to
I will
Lose
Lose everything
I have gained surrounding this mess

Feeling as I fall
Like I have felt nothing before
But theres so much pain
I don’t know where to start
these days i know
seem to bring the same pain

I am
I will
Lost
Lost inside me
Surrounded by this mess

[PaRkA]

moments in time

everything i thought i had seems so far away
everyday i had it this way starts to fade
this pain in my heart comes back to stay
now you've gone and led me astray

moments in time
stay still
just so this pain
can completely feel

day to day things were looking good
some of the best times i had
standout moments at last
washed away with rain water down the drain

moments in life
pause for affect
just so this pain
steals all it came to get

one day this puzzle will show
and then ill know
my journey will slow
now i just wait

[PaRkA]

This pain

When it cuts so bad
How deep it goes
This pain I feel
Always shows

I thought after so long
I knew so much
this pain I feel
this pain for you

I never knew this pain
would hurt so bad
this pain for you
this pain so sad

To be this close to you
But your so far away
This pain I feel
Lingers on all day

This pain I feel
cuts so deep
The hurt I feel
Not so sweet

And everyday its like this
now i want to stop
this pain i feel
this pain for you

[PaRkA]

finally.....

i cant take it
withstanding so much pressure
feeling the walls enclose

trying to break
this last strap
so i can escape

constantly my head shakes
welling with my tears
puddles of hate

trying to break free
this last strap holds me
i cant escape

sick of being pushed
im tired and im not backing away
cant i, just for one day have it my way

Trying to break
Every last one
So I can escape