Post by PaRkA on Jan 14, 2006 9:48:22 GMT 7
well a fair has happened in my life this last 2 or so months, and has caused me to write heaps (i mean fucking lots) so im going to put everything i have written in here, for you to see, please comment as you see fit.....
they are not in any order.....
desolation
i could lose myself
everytime i look into your eyes
i find myself
when ever you smile
im lost when you leave
but find myself
when im next to you
i struggle when i think of not being with you
but i could rule the world if you were mine
to not have you now
tears me to shreads
i cant explain
how empty i feel
because i dont have you
i could lose everything i have
and i would still not hurt
as much as i do
when your not here
a thousand deaths
a million hits to the head
and the sheer force of the pain i feel
destroys all that
i just need to hold you
i want to kiss you
i want to lay beside you
just to know i have you
im struggling now
because im thinking of you
and your not here
the tears that show
are the picture
of desolate barren waste
that i am
hollow
how could i not believe
the pain i felt
i could never see
hollow like my insides
an empty space left to ponder
my strength can not hold up
the weight that sits on my shoulders
this strain moves to cover my face
enclosing this pain leaving me with nothing else
my stomach churns
as the urge to be with you burns
this sting throws bolts thru me
as the urge to cry envelopes me
never being able to say anything
every word i have saved
is lost somewhere in my head
they are all for you
ill let them out
so they can attack you
so you can feel how i felt
i could not believe
this pain i could not see
hollowed my insides out
lead me to wonder
if my strength can hold
the weight on my shoulders
pain moves to conceal
my heart
stopping the thoughts
that rush my head
the urge to be with you burns
bolts of life sting thru me
the urge to die
consumes me
i want to say something
all the words
saved in my head
they're all for you
ill let them out
so they can consume you
so you can see how i felt
i hope im right
ive never felt until last night
that im going to be so alone
that im destined to be by myself
you havent felt so far away
as you did last night
my heads probably playing tricks
and i hope im right
i cant lose you, dont want too
dont want to go on in this life
without you
all i want is to be with you
as i wake this morning
emptiness fills me
ive never felt so alone
you seem that far away
as you did last night
my heads playing tricks with me
i hope im right
i cant lose you, dont want too
dont want to go on in this life without you
dont want any of that
all i want is to be with you
i never thought i could feel this way
the feelings that guide me
have left me with nothing
so empty, feeling so useless
never thought love could leave me
feeling so worthless
i hope my heart is palying tricks on me too
cant lose you
dont want too
dont want to go thru this life without you
all i want
all i need
all that is everything
is you
i want to know
i want to know what those other things are
but i dont expect you to tell me
because i dont need to know
and im not going to ask you
to tell me
so dont tell me
i want to know everything i can
about you
about what you see
what you feel
what you hear
what you think
dont stop telling me
im not going to stop listening
dont stop telling me
i wont stop listening
i want to know everything
all i can
absolutlely every quirk every quarm
i want to know everything i can
about what you feel
what you think
what you hear
what you speak
dont stop telling me
i wont stop listening
dont stop telling me
ill never stop listening
i was weak
i hate you
why now
why show
you were dead
i was fine
got on with my life
now you show
like you didnt even go
how am i sposed to
take it
talk to you
like nothing is wrong
im not even sure what to say
will you even stay
came this far
by myself
cant see why
you would want to be a part of it
im not even sure i want to see you
do you remember
you left me
to fend for myself
i had nothing
i did nothing wrong
you left me
i was weak
i needed you
i was weak
i needed your strength
to help me
suceed this disease
instead you threw me out
just like i was trash in a can
i hate you
i cant speak
not to you
i dont want to see
any part of you
ever
how does that feel
just a chance
The futher apart
The more I feel
I have to make up
To be with you
Sometimes it feels like
I should stand inline
Just to get the chance
to see you
I try to find
I wish I could
Cast a mould to be
The first one you see
Sometimes I wonder
Should I make a booking
Just to get the chance
To be with you
I wonder if I really make
the dent I should
if I stand up to all things
you say you like about me
if ever I could take you
away with me
just to get the chance
to only be with me
but I wouldn’t want it to be a result of having to
maybe I should just let you be
oneday maybe you will find your way back to me
leaving me stranded
you wait till im weak
till im fast asleep
till dark so you can be subtle
you leave and dont speak
i could never understand
why i never saw you, you never called
why was i left alone
when i needed you the most
i had nowhere to go
nowhere to hide
trapped by this disease
i wanted to die
you still stay away
like my pain was contagious
like you wanted to hurt this face
how am i supposed to come to peace
how am i sposed to look up to you
im sposed to be you
learn from you
be guided and taught by you
stranding the ones you love
when they need you the most
i learnt that, it hurts, always will
distances me from everyone, everytime
Mango
i can see you so high
in the clouds with me
and everytime i look down i fear i will fall
need you to guide me to hide me
protect me
and stay beside me
do anything to know you want me
do anything to know you need me
anything at all to be free
so cant you just stay with me
i need this more than anything
no matter what i try
i cant seem to hide
how i feel for you
sitting here
and everything could happen
anywhere else
but im taken
and cant seem to escape your eyes
they draw me
and im hooked for life
its going to be a ride
so i hold on tight not wanting to let you go
so cant you just come to me
i need this more than anything
need more than anyone
i cant seem to hide
the feelings i feel for you
im in a position where
i can be taken
just dont steal my heart
it cant seem to stop beating
every step makes me weak at the knees
like this power you have is
taking over me
maze
you stand before this maze
journey will take forever
i look from above
the walls i wish to raise
i could lead you the way
only to find you away
but this journey for you alone
this journey you take
lead you all over
so far from home
i could lead you away
im trying to find the way
i stand at the end
waiting here
to see if you can
find your way to me
i could lead the way
only to find you away
i cant believe as i stand here
i see you walking
towards me
you found me here
not giving up on you
how could i pull out of this
it would drive me insane
what good would it do
to know i hurt you
where would i go
that would be punishment enough for that pain
ive tried to get my head
around everything in front of me
i try and it scares me
i can see no way out
no other fix in sight
and everything else
when i see you
everything else seems right
everytime i touch you
hold you
all of time ceases to exist
like nothing else is capable
of making me feel
like the way you do
like times when i smell your hair
i hold you close
you could almost become part of me
so how can i pull out
it wouldnt do any good
how could i open my eyes
to see when all i want to see is you
no sight shakes me like the sight
i see when i look into your eyes
i could look at nothing ever again
and still be the happiest person alive
so i cant pull out
i would lose you
and part of me too
so im not giving up on you
its not what im here to do
im here to be with you
right now
how'd we get caught up
and stuck in this mess
to fend for ourselves
to take the test
i knew my life would be trying
just didnt think it would happen
all at once, right now
i thought i knew how
to clear the obstacles
it all seemed so fine
up in my head all the things i said
i knew my life would try me
just didnt think it would be
all at once, right now
id like to see a clear horizon ahead
but i look and see the clouds form
and moving towards me
ready to test me, to take over me
i never knew my life
would try me quite like this
all at once, all right now
to find a way to pass this
overcome these hurdles
start again without this lifes struggle
to see the horizon clear road ahead
i never knew my test would be so trying
that life would end up with me dying
ive been dead all this time
and i still cant seem to find
how i will make my life up again
without it being so hard
so trying
scar
across my eyebrow
down my leg
the scar you left me
fills my head
destroyed my heart
left me for dead
you want to take it back
like it was yours
why waste my time
with these past haunts
you talk
try to explain
you make no sense
it only fills me
with pain
cant you do this
just leave me alone
as i was
as i want to be..
soft
i could never stand beside you
without telling you
i love you
i would never leave
without saying goodbye
to you
i would never block my ears
when i see you cry
inside
i wish the days would
slow spending forever
with you
i could never bring myself
to steal your heart
and your soul
i will in turn give you mine
let you hold it
for the rest of time
knowing its in better hands
than with me
ill feel better this way
spleen
ill step into your shoes
to take this pain for you
walk your walk
so i pull a muscle too
put on your armour
and take a hit for you
point the gun at me
lead sea coming straight at me
burn my skin heart
to keep you safe from
everything that could hurt you
anyone that will try
project a shield
that covers you
wrap you in cotton
to conceal you
put you in a walless room
to stop you bouncing around
close your eyes
to any nasty surprise
give a my spleen to keep to helathy
keep you safe from
everything that could hurt you
anyone who tries
keep you safe from me
keep you out of harms way
the deal
the wind blows
and i can smell you
a mirror flashes
and i catch a glimpse of you
i close my eyes and you can
be right here beside me
seems i cant escape you
not that i want too
but we had a deal
that im going to break
every song i hear
sounds like your singing
all the fears i have
surround you
i close my eyes and
i could be anywhere with you
seems i cant escape you
like id want too
but we had a deal
that im going to break
we made a deal
that im going to break
we had a deal
that im struggling to keep
seems i cant escape you
even if i could i dont want too
but we had a deal
for our own sake
im going to break it
im going to break
im going to break
just to be with you
the deal i break
brings me closer to you
close as i want to be
with you
The way I feel tonite
Everytime I sit next to you
Goosebumps stream and take over my body
ive never been this way before
Ive always wanted to let you know
Nothing beats the way I feel tonite
You beside me
Makes this feeling just right
This morning I woke
with a smile upon my face
I remember now just how you make me feel
I don’t want you to leave
Nothing can beat the way I feel tonite
You here with me
Makes this feeling just right
All the time I spend with you
Everything I get in return
My smile that smears across my face
Is a small proof of how much I want you
Nothing will beat the way I feel tonite
You here with me
Makes this feeling just right
how do i help you with this
without making it look like
im conceited
i just want you
but till you leave him
i have to hide
i can wait
but its a struggle
i have to wait
to not cause trouble
so how do i push you
without you falling away from me
its going to take time to get you
i have plenty of time to love you
all the time in the world for you
i can wait
but its a struggle
i have to wait
to not cause trouble
so why cant i pry you away
and hold you to me
why do you stay on a sinking ship
these reasons i cant see
maybe its me sinking on my own ship
waiting for you to save me
i can wait
but its a struggle
i have to wait
to not cause trouble
or i could be so blind to see
nothing at all is happening
and im dreaming
of what i want to be
you with me
without thinking what is actually
going to be
something so crazy
you with me
something so crazy
that you may just forget me
something so crazy
i can see happening
to hold you
to hold you
till all the
nights end
to hold you
to scare all
the demons
to hold you
to never forget
this feeling
to hold you
to know you
to love you
to hold you
and make sure
you never leave
to hold you
find a way
to console you
to hold you
to help you
to find solace
this song i sing to hold you
this song i sing to know you
this song i sing to love you
this song i sing to destroy you
this song i sing to rescue you
this song i sing for you
this song i sing is always you
to hold you
to know you
to love you
to hold you
to know you
to love you
what i want
i want to know what its like to be the only thoughts on somones mind,
to be the only thing they think about,
i want to know that the blood they pump in their heart is a result of wanting to be with me....
the reason i dont ask for what i want is cause i am selfish and want too much
i want to know that i encompass somebodies world as i would want them to encompass mine
every smile that i smile is because at the most inapropriate moment
they came flooding into my heart and my mind and took over everything
i dont care how embarrassed i feel about the stupid smile on my face in a public place,
i just want to feel that and know that someone feels that about me
nothing else to me matters right now...nothing
thats why i dont ask
because it is too much
compared to what i have to give. yes it is
while you were off on in your own little world i was able to just look at you,
you caught me and kept looking at me...
you looked completely different in that light
last night so surreal
like it was from a book
i wanted to kiss you
but i new
it would be too much for you
not now
but i will
i want to you to be
all that i want
i want to be the only thing on your mind
i want to haunt you like a diease
like you do to me
i want the smile
thats shines from you
to be for me
i want to see forever
you in that light
you can take my life
as long as i have that vision of you
that i had last night...
whats it all for
i found today
something in the way
seems like time has stopped
i want this to be over
it feels like im paused
like everything has stalled
makes this feeling
so much more
harder to bare
like its making sure it scars me
so the next time
i try i will hide
this test
like its my last
i fail then maybe its time
i pass
whats it all for
just show me this task
without you
you dont even know
the questions i need
to ask
you dont know
what ive been thru
so how can you think
that i want you back
in my life
i got this far
without you
everyday
without you
now today
you need to talk to me
you call
as if nothing is wrong
you wonder why i stall
ten years of hurt
not knowing why
and you expect me
to say hello
like i missed you
like i want too
but i hate you
what do you say to the person
who destroyed your life
without you
i got here
without you
i continue
without you
you can try
it doesnt matter
everytime i hold you
everything disappears
i dont want to let go
if i could have you
just want to keep you
you make all the wrong things
seem so right
i wont let go
you can pry me away
im going to hold you
till forever
i hope though
that its never
you can try
but im not letting go
you can try
but im sure you know
im going to hold you
till forever arrives
till the day that i die
till never arrives
till the day i die
you in my life
id give up the gold
to know
i would sacrafice the jewels
to be in
i will die tomorrow
if it means i fix everything
every chance i can have
i need to make it right
for everything i want in life
you just make it right
no dollar value will suffice
if i dont have someone
someone like you in my life
being held back
and told to let go
i will destroy anyone
and pay the price
just so i know i have you in my life
wish it were true
so i can believe
see it in you
so i can be free
you left me
you come back
to defy me
i cant even speak
to feel
what do you need
from me
cant what you have already taken be enough
you would like to talk
well i have something to say
you left me
i had nothing
no one
you still left me
i was in no state
to fend for myself
you still left me
i carried on
without you there
i dont need you now
you left me
taught myself
to not have you around
now you want to wreck
my life for the second time
you still left me
.......................................
so yeah i told you i have written heaps as you can see most of it is about a girl (to which i have written way more stuff, but thats just for us) and the sad angry songs are for my dad who decided after 10 yrs to ring me on chrissy day...
well anyway, i hope you manage o read them all and enjoy
p.s i also got some recording equipment for chrissy so im hoping that demos will be coming your way very soon....
they are not in any order.....
desolation
i could lose myself
everytime i look into your eyes
i find myself
when ever you smile
im lost when you leave
but find myself
when im next to you
i struggle when i think of not being with you
but i could rule the world if you were mine
to not have you now
tears me to shreads
i cant explain
how empty i feel
because i dont have you
i could lose everything i have
and i would still not hurt
as much as i do
when your not here
a thousand deaths
a million hits to the head
and the sheer force of the pain i feel
destroys all that
i just need to hold you
i want to kiss you
i want to lay beside you
just to know i have you
im struggling now
because im thinking of you
and your not here
the tears that show
are the picture
of desolate barren waste
that i am
hollow
how could i not believe
the pain i felt
i could never see
hollow like my insides
an empty space left to ponder
my strength can not hold up
the weight that sits on my shoulders
this strain moves to cover my face
enclosing this pain leaving me with nothing else
my stomach churns
as the urge to be with you burns
this sting throws bolts thru me
as the urge to cry envelopes me
never being able to say anything
every word i have saved
is lost somewhere in my head
they are all for you
ill let them out
so they can attack you
so you can feel how i felt
i could not believe
this pain i could not see
hollowed my insides out
lead me to wonder
if my strength can hold
the weight on my shoulders
pain moves to conceal
my heart
stopping the thoughts
that rush my head
the urge to be with you burns
bolts of life sting thru me
the urge to die
consumes me
i want to say something
all the words
saved in my head
they're all for you
ill let them out
so they can consume you
so you can see how i felt
i hope im right
ive never felt until last night
that im going to be so alone
that im destined to be by myself
you havent felt so far away
as you did last night
my heads probably playing tricks
and i hope im right
i cant lose you, dont want too
dont want to go on in this life
without you
all i want is to be with you
as i wake this morning
emptiness fills me
ive never felt so alone
you seem that far away
as you did last night
my heads playing tricks with me
i hope im right
i cant lose you, dont want too
dont want to go on in this life without you
dont want any of that
all i want is to be with you
i never thought i could feel this way
the feelings that guide me
have left me with nothing
so empty, feeling so useless
never thought love could leave me
feeling so worthless
i hope my heart is palying tricks on me too
cant lose you
dont want too
dont want to go thru this life without you
all i want
all i need
all that is everything
is you
i want to know
i want to know what those other things are
but i dont expect you to tell me
because i dont need to know
and im not going to ask you
to tell me
so dont tell me
i want to know everything i can
about you
about what you see
what you feel
what you hear
what you think
dont stop telling me
im not going to stop listening
dont stop telling me
i wont stop listening
i want to know everything
all i can
absolutlely every quirk every quarm
i want to know everything i can
about what you feel
what you think
what you hear
what you speak
dont stop telling me
i wont stop listening
dont stop telling me
ill never stop listening
i was weak
i hate you
why now
why show
you were dead
i was fine
got on with my life
now you show
like you didnt even go
how am i sposed to
take it
talk to you
like nothing is wrong
im not even sure what to say
will you even stay
came this far
by myself
cant see why
you would want to be a part of it
im not even sure i want to see you
do you remember
you left me
to fend for myself
i had nothing
i did nothing wrong
you left me
i was weak
i needed you
i was weak
i needed your strength
to help me
suceed this disease
instead you threw me out
just like i was trash in a can
i hate you
i cant speak
not to you
i dont want to see
any part of you
ever
how does that feel
just a chance
The futher apart
The more I feel
I have to make up
To be with you
Sometimes it feels like
I should stand inline
Just to get the chance
to see you
I try to find
I wish I could
Cast a mould to be
The first one you see
Sometimes I wonder
Should I make a booking
Just to get the chance
To be with you
I wonder if I really make
the dent I should
if I stand up to all things
you say you like about me
if ever I could take you
away with me
just to get the chance
to only be with me
but I wouldn’t want it to be a result of having to
maybe I should just let you be
oneday maybe you will find your way back to me
leaving me stranded
you wait till im weak
till im fast asleep
till dark so you can be subtle
you leave and dont speak
i could never understand
why i never saw you, you never called
why was i left alone
when i needed you the most
i had nowhere to go
nowhere to hide
trapped by this disease
i wanted to die
you still stay away
like my pain was contagious
like you wanted to hurt this face
how am i supposed to come to peace
how am i sposed to look up to you
im sposed to be you
learn from you
be guided and taught by you
stranding the ones you love
when they need you the most
i learnt that, it hurts, always will
distances me from everyone, everytime
Mango
i can see you so high
in the clouds with me
and everytime i look down i fear i will fall
need you to guide me to hide me
protect me
and stay beside me
do anything to know you want me
do anything to know you need me
anything at all to be free
so cant you just stay with me
i need this more than anything
no matter what i try
i cant seem to hide
how i feel for you
sitting here
and everything could happen
anywhere else
but im taken
and cant seem to escape your eyes
they draw me
and im hooked for life
its going to be a ride
so i hold on tight not wanting to let you go
so cant you just come to me
i need this more than anything
need more than anyone
i cant seem to hide
the feelings i feel for you
im in a position where
i can be taken
just dont steal my heart
it cant seem to stop beating
every step makes me weak at the knees
like this power you have is
taking over me
maze
you stand before this maze
journey will take forever
i look from above
the walls i wish to raise
i could lead you the way
only to find you away
but this journey for you alone
this journey you take
lead you all over
so far from home
i could lead you away
im trying to find the way
i stand at the end
waiting here
to see if you can
find your way to me
i could lead the way
only to find you away
i cant believe as i stand here
i see you walking
towards me
you found me here
not giving up on you
how could i pull out of this
it would drive me insane
what good would it do
to know i hurt you
where would i go
that would be punishment enough for that pain
ive tried to get my head
around everything in front of me
i try and it scares me
i can see no way out
no other fix in sight
and everything else
when i see you
everything else seems right
everytime i touch you
hold you
all of time ceases to exist
like nothing else is capable
of making me feel
like the way you do
like times when i smell your hair
i hold you close
you could almost become part of me
so how can i pull out
it wouldnt do any good
how could i open my eyes
to see when all i want to see is you
no sight shakes me like the sight
i see when i look into your eyes
i could look at nothing ever again
and still be the happiest person alive
so i cant pull out
i would lose you
and part of me too
so im not giving up on you
its not what im here to do
im here to be with you
right now
how'd we get caught up
and stuck in this mess
to fend for ourselves
to take the test
i knew my life would be trying
just didnt think it would happen
all at once, right now
i thought i knew how
to clear the obstacles
it all seemed so fine
up in my head all the things i said
i knew my life would try me
just didnt think it would be
all at once, right now
id like to see a clear horizon ahead
but i look and see the clouds form
and moving towards me
ready to test me, to take over me
i never knew my life
would try me quite like this
all at once, all right now
to find a way to pass this
overcome these hurdles
start again without this lifes struggle
to see the horizon clear road ahead
i never knew my test would be so trying
that life would end up with me dying
ive been dead all this time
and i still cant seem to find
how i will make my life up again
without it being so hard
so trying
scar
across my eyebrow
down my leg
the scar you left me
fills my head
destroyed my heart
left me for dead
you want to take it back
like it was yours
why waste my time
with these past haunts
you talk
try to explain
you make no sense
it only fills me
with pain
cant you do this
just leave me alone
as i was
as i want to be..
soft
i could never stand beside you
without telling you
i love you
i would never leave
without saying goodbye
to you
i would never block my ears
when i see you cry
inside
i wish the days would
slow spending forever
with you
i could never bring myself
to steal your heart
and your soul
i will in turn give you mine
let you hold it
for the rest of time
knowing its in better hands
than with me
ill feel better this way
spleen
ill step into your shoes
to take this pain for you
walk your walk
so i pull a muscle too
put on your armour
and take a hit for you
point the gun at me
lead sea coming straight at me
burn my skin heart
to keep you safe from
everything that could hurt you
anyone that will try
project a shield
that covers you
wrap you in cotton
to conceal you
put you in a walless room
to stop you bouncing around
close your eyes
to any nasty surprise
give a my spleen to keep to helathy
keep you safe from
everything that could hurt you
anyone who tries
keep you safe from me
keep you out of harms way
the deal
the wind blows
and i can smell you
a mirror flashes
and i catch a glimpse of you
i close my eyes and you can
be right here beside me
seems i cant escape you
not that i want too
but we had a deal
that im going to break
every song i hear
sounds like your singing
all the fears i have
surround you
i close my eyes and
i could be anywhere with you
seems i cant escape you
like id want too
but we had a deal
that im going to break
we made a deal
that im going to break
we had a deal
that im struggling to keep
seems i cant escape you
even if i could i dont want too
but we had a deal
for our own sake
im going to break it
im going to break
im going to break
just to be with you
the deal i break
brings me closer to you
close as i want to be
with you
The way I feel tonite
Everytime I sit next to you
Goosebumps stream and take over my body
ive never been this way before
Ive always wanted to let you know
Nothing beats the way I feel tonite
You beside me
Makes this feeling just right
This morning I woke
with a smile upon my face
I remember now just how you make me feel
I don’t want you to leave
Nothing can beat the way I feel tonite
You here with me
Makes this feeling just right
All the time I spend with you
Everything I get in return
My smile that smears across my face
Is a small proof of how much I want you
Nothing will beat the way I feel tonite
You here with me
Makes this feeling just right
how do i help you with this
without making it look like
im conceited
i just want you
but till you leave him
i have to hide
i can wait
but its a struggle
i have to wait
to not cause trouble
so how do i push you
without you falling away from me
its going to take time to get you
i have plenty of time to love you
all the time in the world for you
i can wait
but its a struggle
i have to wait
to not cause trouble
so why cant i pry you away
and hold you to me
why do you stay on a sinking ship
these reasons i cant see
maybe its me sinking on my own ship
waiting for you to save me
i can wait
but its a struggle
i have to wait
to not cause trouble
or i could be so blind to see
nothing at all is happening
and im dreaming
of what i want to be
you with me
without thinking what is actually
going to be
something so crazy
you with me
something so crazy
that you may just forget me
something so crazy
i can see happening
to hold you
to hold you
till all the
nights end
to hold you
to scare all
the demons
to hold you
to never forget
this feeling
to hold you
to know you
to love you
to hold you
and make sure
you never leave
to hold you
find a way
to console you
to hold you
to help you
to find solace
this song i sing to hold you
this song i sing to know you
this song i sing to love you
this song i sing to destroy you
this song i sing to rescue you
this song i sing for you
this song i sing is always you
to hold you
to know you
to love you
to hold you
to know you
to love you
what i want
i want to know what its like to be the only thoughts on somones mind,
to be the only thing they think about,
i want to know that the blood they pump in their heart is a result of wanting to be with me....
the reason i dont ask for what i want is cause i am selfish and want too much
i want to know that i encompass somebodies world as i would want them to encompass mine
every smile that i smile is because at the most inapropriate moment
they came flooding into my heart and my mind and took over everything
i dont care how embarrassed i feel about the stupid smile on my face in a public place,
i just want to feel that and know that someone feels that about me
nothing else to me matters right now...nothing
thats why i dont ask
because it is too much
compared to what i have to give. yes it is
while you were off on in your own little world i was able to just look at you,
you caught me and kept looking at me...
you looked completely different in that light
last night so surreal
like it was from a book
i wanted to kiss you
but i new
it would be too much for you
not now
but i will
i want to you to be
all that i want
i want to be the only thing on your mind
i want to haunt you like a diease
like you do to me
i want the smile
thats shines from you
to be for me
i want to see forever
you in that light
you can take my life
as long as i have that vision of you
that i had last night...
whats it all for
i found today
something in the way
seems like time has stopped
i want this to be over
it feels like im paused
like everything has stalled
makes this feeling
so much more
harder to bare
like its making sure it scars me
so the next time
i try i will hide
this test
like its my last
i fail then maybe its time
i pass
whats it all for
just show me this task
without you
you dont even know
the questions i need
to ask
you dont know
what ive been thru
so how can you think
that i want you back
in my life
i got this far
without you
everyday
without you
now today
you need to talk to me
you call
as if nothing is wrong
you wonder why i stall
ten years of hurt
not knowing why
and you expect me
to say hello
like i missed you
like i want too
but i hate you
what do you say to the person
who destroyed your life
without you
i got here
without you
i continue
without you
you can try
it doesnt matter
everytime i hold you
everything disappears
i dont want to let go
if i could have you
just want to keep you
you make all the wrong things
seem so right
i wont let go
you can pry me away
im going to hold you
till forever
i hope though
that its never
you can try
but im not letting go
you can try
but im sure you know
im going to hold you
till forever arrives
till the day that i die
till never arrives
till the day i die
you in my life
id give up the gold
to know
i would sacrafice the jewels
to be in
i will die tomorrow
if it means i fix everything
every chance i can have
i need to make it right
for everything i want in life
you just make it right
no dollar value will suffice
if i dont have someone
someone like you in my life
being held back
and told to let go
i will destroy anyone
and pay the price
just so i know i have you in my life
wish it were true
so i can believe
see it in you
so i can be free
you left me
you come back
to defy me
i cant even speak
to feel
what do you need
from me
cant what you have already taken be enough
you would like to talk
well i have something to say
you left me
i had nothing
no one
you still left me
i was in no state
to fend for myself
you still left me
i carried on
without you there
i dont need you now
you left me
taught myself
to not have you around
now you want to wreck
my life for the second time
you still left me
.......................................
so yeah i told you i have written heaps as you can see most of it is about a girl (to which i have written way more stuff, but thats just for us) and the sad angry songs are for my dad who decided after 10 yrs to ring me on chrissy day...
well anyway, i hope you manage o read them all and enjoy
p.s i also got some recording equipment for chrissy so im hoping that demos will be coming your way very soon....
